Im one of those people who loves too much and receives too little, and as much as i let that show trying to not let myself get hurt, i do and im a very complicated person because of this! I usually show people my love for then my talking to them as much as possibly, even if its everyday and nothing has happened... i just want them to know im there at all times, but the fact that im there i guess means that the oother person gets to leave, and it literally kills me inside, because i want to hurt myself because this person doesnt love me anymore, and as stupid as that is, its how i feel. i guess thats the bi-polar in me.. which makes getting back on meds that much more important! and when i think of how stupid i am for all those feelings i like to listen to songs similar to my feelings, and i think the song Stupid by Sarah Mclachlan is perfect if you havent heard it listen to the remix by mark bell, its better than the original! the lyrics are as follow..

Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady there now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes

[Chorus:]

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you

[Chorus]

everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know

[Chorus]

(words are not mine they are owned by sarah mclaclan and her record company)